Two Truths and a Lie:
1. I am fully known and still loved by God.
2. My value is based on how productive I am.
3. I am chosen and set apart.
I have a confession.
I have felt guilty for taking a break from ministry because my heart wants so much to continue to encourage you in this space.
But I have another confession: I just couldn’t do it.
For the past year, I have been doing what is most needed, taking care of my sweet mom. Watching a loved one struggle with vicious health diagnoses is excruciating, but even more so when there is also strife in the background. Three different hospital visits for her and my father-in-law passing away, this has just been a very raw season.
And so I was tempted to choose number two above as a truth for me. Thinking that my worth had decreased because I am taking a break from my podcast and other ministry endeavors.
Yet, as only God can do, He sent me speaking a lot this year, which put me into His Word, desperate for revelation. And He has used those talks I developed for these speaking events as a mirror to show me my own need.
As I have struggled to breathe and step out of the pit of life’s traumatic occasions, it is putting my oxygen mask of God’s Word on that is stirring my heart to heal. And it is my church that is helping me breathe again, as I recover from a painful church experience.
Being productive could not heal the deep wounds in my soul in this empty nest season, which has also inflicted wounds upon my soul, but being real about it could. Showing up to serve began to pull me out of the miry pit that threatened to keep me trapped in a sea of problems.
I am learning to move more slowly, to be more gracious with myself and others. To pause when I feel rushed or like I am falling behind.
So here I am. Trying to climb out from underneath the rock I have been under, only to discover that it has been Christ covering me this whole time.
I pray for you, friend, that whatever stress this life is putting on you, you would hold fast to the truth and let go of the lies. Your worth is truly in Christ alone, not in what you do and not in what has happened to you.